90-days-and-beyond

I am 90 days alcohol free today.  It is the first time probably since high school (I'm 47 so that is really saying something).  Why am I feeling just so down and blah today then?  Don't get me wrong, I am happy that I have made it so far and I'd like to further.  I have in fact committed to 100 days, which falls on April 10, 2021.  After that, we'll see. I just thought I'd feel better by now.  Lighter, brighter, floating around happily, channeling all of the energy of the universe that I have failed to tap into while sipping wine in my living room, kitchen, yard, on the beach, at a restaurant, on a boat, and pretty much anywhere else you can imagine. What I do have:  clarity, about 6 less pounds, an excellent 10,000 step/day track record and a newly acquired (and used!) Peloton, a better and closer relationship with my 10 year old and 4 year old, more confidence at work and in general.   Being sober however has also made me take a look at a lot of bad decisions and